Last month, Andre “Christ Bearer” Johnson made headlines after he cut off his own penis and then attempted to take his own life. Now we know why the Wu Tang Clan associated rapper did what he did.

According to Gawker, Johnson stated that he was depressed and slapped with restraining orders against two of his children and reportedly has a third one on the way. Since he was alone, he smoked some weed and read about monks and vasectomies. For some reason unclear to any rational being, Johnson was inspired to try it at home, by himself. We all know the chaos that ensued next.

Although the Wu Tang Clan attempted to disassociate themselves from Andre Johnson after the event, he claims that he is a still proud member. TMZ even has Andre quoted stating “I am the fucking Wu Tang.” But lucky for Andre Johnson, doctors were able to reattach the severed penis and bring it back to “full functionality”, minus the ability to produce more children. I guess this act of complete insanity will have a happy ending after all. 

-Marisa Frydman (@musicalmarisa)